Monday, February 1, 2010

I am beginning to find myself

About three years ago I couldn't tell you what I was interested in; what did I want to work on; what did I think needed changing in the world. I just had no real concept.  I knew I wanted to pass the bar.  I knew I wanted to get a job that didn't bore me to death.  I was pretty sure that happiness was somewhere on the other side of bar membership, lawyer job, and money.  I was pretty confused.

Today, I know what gets me going in the morning: its the thought of doing work for the common good. 

I am particularly interested in child sexual abuse and the effect it has on children and adults as the get older and try to live independent lives.  I am also deeply concerned about the human aspect of war on terror: American soldiers, American Muslims, citizens of Iraq, Afghanistan, Pakistan; what is really happening; and what else can be done.  That's what I think about everyday.  Those are the thoughts that I have to pull myself away from to hunt for a job, project how I'm going to pay my rent, and remember to leave the house for my current employment torture.

What does this all mean?  It means that I'm complicated!  I am also a person who likes big, challenging problems; I want to help the whole world.  And I'm not sure I have the confidence or ability to change my life.  I need to work this out in public.  I need the thoughts and criticisms of friends and strangers who think they know better.  I'm not getting anywhere alone.

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